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LET IT GO!

Thembi Fletcher
Jul 26, 2017
4 min read

I remember the day I found out that I was expecting. I was half asleep when I took the test earlier that morning of January 19th, 2014. Seeing a positive test result had me staring blankly at my reflection in the mirror for about five minutes. It was hard for me to believe that we were going to have a baby, after having tried for a while, and not gotten any results. Still in utter shock, I eased my way into the bedroom and gently shook my husband's slumbering body. As he reluctantly tried to wake up, he asked me what I wanted. In a shaky, raspy voice I responded by saying, "Baby, I'm PREGNANT!". Shane immediately sat up in the bed and asked me if I was being serious. The tears of joy racing down my face said it all, Absolutely! In total disbelief, he asked if we could go to a free clinic to get an official test. So we hurried off to the Corsicana free clinic where I took another test. As soon as the nurse came out to meet us with the good news, Shane turned towards me and squeezed my hand with excitement. Together, we got onto the emotional wagon and shed tears of exceeding joy. We were so elated, because the news was nothing short of a miracle.

The funny thing about how God works is that He uses the foolish things of the world to confound the wise. I had a set plan for my future, and had implemented steps that I would follow to a T to get what I wanted. In my mind, the ideal time to have a baby was at a time when my husband and I were flourishing financially. We had decided to start trying for a baby the previous year. Shane was about to get promoted on his job to the position of Assistant manager; we had set up an account for emergency funds, and were looking to get a trust fund going for our baby. Everything seemed to have fallen into place in our eyes, and we felt that having a baby would be icing on the cake. But God had other plans. We tried and tried for a baby, until I became depressed and angry at Him. My husband went through a job change and his salary got a lot smaller. We went through the emergency funds so quickly that we didn't know how we were going to survive. Then I found out I was pregnant?

Why God chose to bless us with a new life at a time when everything was out of whack is still a mystery to me. But I know one thing, God will not share glory with any man. He is not going to compete with you and I. No matter how hard we flex our muscles and try to figure it out, He is willing to wait until we are ready to relinquish all control. Paul understood that God's strength and power could only be made perfect in his weakness. He refused to boast in himself, and chose to glory in his weaknesses and infirmities so that power of Christ could rest upon him.

I too have learned that human effort and strenuous exertion will only get me so far. God's gift is certainly not dependent on it. But His mercy can take us much farther than we could ever dream of going. Shane and I had to come to terms with that, through all the hardships that we faced in 2014. We learned to put our complete trust in Christ, and even though the trials got tougher, God came through for us that much greater. There wasn't a need that He did not meet, there wasn't a bill that did not get paid. He used the least expected resources to be of help to us, and by the time our little princess made her debut, she was set for years to come. And to me, this is evidence of God's mercy and power. His work is perfect beloved. When He chooses to bless you, He will ensure that you are set, and there is no sorrow added to your blessing.

So then dear readers, let us let go of all the control that we want to hang on to so badly. It really isn't worth God resisting us over. Let us let go of all the fear that keeps us disabled and hinders us from reaching our full potential in Him. We were never designed to try to figure life out all by ourselves. Our job is trust in God, obey His commandments, and rest in His promises. I see that now even in starting this blog. It was birthed at a time when I didn't think I had what it takes to reach people through my writings. Just yesterday (November, 21st) I felt like giving it all up and going to back to the way things have always been. But God would not let me have it any other way. His Spirit quickened me this morning and put a message in my heart to share with you today. And so here I am seeing Him perform HIS WORD that He has watched over for over a year now when He told me that I would write content to reach people all over the world and tell them all about JESUS. That is why I'm letting go of what I know to be Thembi, and I'm going to fix my eyes on Jesus so that He can show me who I'm meant to be. I pray that you too will do the same.

With love, Thembi Fletcher.

" So then [God's gift] is not a question of human effort, but of God's mercy. [It depends not on one's own willingness nor on his strenuous exertion as in running a race, but on God's having mercy on him.]" Romans 9:16

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